Positivity is one of my tools to use to get through BC and is also the number one recommendation from others to help fight this journey. I have so many wonderful people sending me positive thoughts, notes, and cards that it makes me feel that there is no room for negativity. The first words out of most mouths when they find out about BC, is STAY POSITIVE!!!
I have to wonder, what if I don't? What if I remain realistic, my norm, and just rely on y'alls positivity to flow through the journey. Would it work? Or, do the positive thoughts really mean nothing other than improving my positivity which is the key to the stubborn door?
I still feel that there's no reason to worry about BC despite the potential risks. For instance, today my oncologist called and we are back on the waiting train for bone cancer. The biopsy came back from the Mayo Clinic inconclusive. I either have benign enchondroma or low grade sarcoma which is like stage 1 cancer. The west siders might have been right, or very wrong.
I now have to go see a specialist at OSU, damn you Charlene, for further testing. I assume this means more bruising, more missed work, more worry and the need for more positive thoughts. I am extremely thankful that so many people are thinking of me, but I do wonder what I would be facing if they were just thoughts, not positive.
My one breakdown involved black walnut whiskey, coworkers and a designated drive home by my husband. I suppose I'm only allowed to be negative in the comfort of my home otherwise I'll be bombarded with positivity. Maybe I need to schedule a negative day so people know ahead of time, negativity has its place if only to highlight the positive.
Week seven is coming to a close with another question, another car on the waiting train and another week of no whiskey. Stupid cancer
Stupid cancer.😡
ReplyDeleteYou must remain positive, the state of your mind is everything. I shared with your husband that I was diagnosed with an auto immune disorder and it was a three year journey but I put myself in remission and only 10% of people that were diagnosed are able to do that. Had to go through four endocrinologists before I found one who believed in me and was willing to sign on my journey. So I think I can say that the state of your mind is the number one most important on your journey. Yes it is only human to have bad days but overall stay positive and you will be big time winner.
ReplyDeleteYou know how naturally negative I am (at least when it comes to my own life). ;) I can understand the need for a negativity day, and I'd be happy to be mad with you.
ReplyDeleteYou know how naturally negative I am (at least when it comes to my own life). ;) I can understand the need for a negativity day, and I'd be happy to be mad with you.
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